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Across the Spectrum

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Your words tumbled out,
and I couldn't catch them
between your breaths,
but settled for holding you close
for a moment,
a hand across your back
to still the shaking,
and open my ears to combine
the syllables you spoke into words
I could understand.

I don't even want to think
about any of it.
I'm just…
I'm just such a fuck-up.


I wouldn't ever dare tell you
how or what to think,
but as clear as you've spelled out
to me that I'm not always wrong,
and not always the one at fault,
I want to play off of your words:
you did nothing wrong,
taking and repeating them to you
until you could think them true.

Maybe I'd even write it out,
twisting my own spin into it,
taking all of the things
I love about you and putting them
together on a once-white
sheet of paper and covering it with words
in colors all across the spectrum –
ones you've never seen from me,
in the hope that maybe
you could read them as truths,
like you aren't a fuck-up
and never have been.

I once wrote:
when has my scarred hand
ever sat on your shoulder
like a smile
trailing behind stitched shoes?

but it has now,
and I'm seeing how much
we play off of each other
in the way that my lips
want to speak the words
you once said to me:
I just want you to be happy,
and have those twenty-one letters
split seven uneven ways
mean something that could dry
your eyes.

Walk with me down a street
called Happiness, and I'll trade you
a smile for a smile, and promise
to leave alone the streaks
on your cheeks, same as mine,
that show the slight lie in the bringing
of our lips to curves, and I'll drop
my sorries off along the way
in trashcans and gutters
if you'll do the same –
the breeze waiting to dry
our cheeks.
Written 3/10/11-3/14/11.
Edit on 3/19/11
A friend of mine wrecked her car on a main highway during morning rush hour. She's alright, but the car is a mess, and she was upset.
Clarification: The first italics set is what she said to me then.
The second set is what she tells me when I say 'I'm sorry.'
The third set are lines from [link] which was also written to her.
The fourth set is from [link] written about her, too.

-italics. make sense without the clarification?
-fave part?
-ending?
-street called happiness line?
-imagery. like, yes/no? fave image?

JENN LOVES YOU ALLLLL. :heart::icontardglompplz:
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wickedimpulse's avatar
OH EM JESUS! (The site won't let me see it. >.<)

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